Last day of school , last day of STPM

yes , indeed before this , i was waiting for this day to come , impatiently waiting for it to end.
but frankly after i broke up during my examinations , i DONT WISH THIS DAY WOULD COME.

bcuz before this i was planning all sorts of trips and outing together with Him.

and now , i hav to go through everything by myself.
i have to learn to be independent again.
not depending on somebody to teach me , guide me , listen to all my things.
i hav to keep it all my myself.

He was once my guider , my listener , i would say besides my bf , he can be the best fren i ever had.
but now , he's gone . it's like u've lost ur best fren who always listens to u , lend u a shoulder to cry on , or mayb a hug when u need it.


yea its emotional i know .


Yesterday was the one of my most emotional time in my life ,
eventhough ting , yuan , alie , pat , mun and hadi came to accompany.
i was so upset when they are gone.
i felt so empty when im going back.
bcuz i noe , i will miss them so much and hardly i can see them again.

my tears start to drop when i was sitting at the back , when li ting is driving ,
i miss all of u , seriously .
i cant describe that feeling , but i just want u guys back.

evrything just felt so empty ,
suddenly im away of everybody that's close to me in my life.
its hard to adapt, its really hard. i just hope everything can turn back to normal.
or everything can go back in time ,
whereby i can treasure u guys more ,
i can cherish u guys and will never let u guys down.
bcuz i love u all , i really do.

and im regret now , regret of being selfish , which is I I I .

and now im alone . i understand the feeling .

i had fun yest with u guys , and memories abt me n Him keep flashing thru ,
there is moment that im happy , but there is moment tht im not..
the snow will remain in my heart , that's our friendship that we've build.


how i wish i could turn time back and be in love again. =)